**Her Genesis**

Have you ever felt like you were starting a new beginning and have no idea what it is? Well.. I have hit that point. I am not sure what the beginning may be, but I do know that my life has completely changed. God has been such a blessing and I am so thankful for that. I have overcome all obstacles that I never thought I could. As I write this, I can see just how much he has helped my heart and inner peace. It was like boot camp this last year. At times I could smile, laugh and giggle all day long and there were times where I was stuffing my face in a pillow pouring out a fountain of tears. This year was the most growth that I have ever accomplished. Last night this past year of "training" was put to the test, and I am still surprised at how I handled it. I cannot thank God enough. It didn't matter how much I threw my fits, God pulled me back on the path her paved for me. As I stand on this paved road of not knowing where it will lead me,  I know my God does and I trust him as my guide.

Last night, I was curled up under 3 blankets and just closed my eyes and kept saying, I do not know how I feel Lord, but I know you want the best for me and I trust you to be the author of my life. I probably said it 5 times before I blacked out and fell asleep. It was a dreamless night but frequently waking up. Not having my cell phone on me is just driving me crazy. No cell phone, no alarm clock, no time! I hate feeling like I do not have everything I need for the day.

As I lay here in my warm cozy bed of comfort typing this blog, I see how my prayer was finally answered. I can only speak from my own heart, and I feel more at peace than ever before. Which closes the book that has been opened far too long. Today, is my new Genesis. Nothing has changed on my location, grades, work, life at all. It is more of closing something that has haunted me for a while now and I feel free. I do not feel trap into all the why questions any longer. I do not look back asking God all the questions that I had before because it makes perfect sense to me now. 

So where does this Genesis begin?  I do not know... All I know is, that is starts today. I no longer need to look at the pages of my life and ask all the questions that I did. The past is something that is behind you, I have so much to look forward to in my life. Work, School, Church, Family, Friends and just so much more... Good morning new chapter in this life of mine. Good morning to all the new and exciting things ahead. Good morning to you oh faithful father who has always been by my side. God, you always amaze me with everything you do. now its good morning to today and good night yesterday! :)